Understanding God

Sometimes, I have to run on auto-pilot. What I mean is, at certain points in this Christian walk, I have to move completely by blind faith. I walk solely by his spirit, not really seeing or sensing God's purpose in a particular situation. This most often occurs when I just don't understand God. Many times when we think God is farthest away, he is most close to us. In these times, I cling to the cross and the scripture that says, "his ways are higher than my ways" In these times, even through tears...I will trust the Lord with all of my heart, and not lean on my own understanding, but his.